Since I last posted I went from almost married to now having been married for almost 8 months. So I guess my life has changed, and yet it feels rather normal and the way it should be, so that almost makes me feel like it hasn't changed much. Feel like my life is more solid now in ways, which honestly almost sounds funny to say considering some things, but I do feel that way. I feel like going to Riverview church has a bit to to do with that really. We greet there on Sat nights and are involved in a small group, which gives us involvement in the church beyond just one on the multitudes. Plus I just love it there, I've been going there for the last 3 almost 4 years, but I just always felt like one of the many college kids, where now I feel tied in more. The apartment we live in feels like home as well, which is nice. Although we're still just renters, I feel more so like its mine than I have before. I love being married and I love having a place that Johnny and I live together. Just love to be with the guy.. so much :)
Also I'm so much LESS busy, which drove me crazy at first, but now I like being able to breath. I was trying to explain this kinda the other day, but I think I was doing a poor job of it. There is this desire inside of me to do more than just work and live, but there is also a part that enjoys not being quite so fragmented as I was before. Feel like for the last 2 years of school in-particular, there was nothing and no one that really got any significant part of my attention, focus, or self. I was constantly running, constantly doing, and hardly ever feeling like I was doing all I should or could. Now I'm ok ... when I'm sitting at home w/ my husband I know that there is nothing else I should be doing. I have time to do all that is required of me and that's nice.
I say my life is solid and I feel that way, but there is a part of me that wonders where Johnny and I will be come this summer. He has a temp job currently, which is beyond a blessing and SOO amazing of an answer to prayer, because he was looking for so long. But its not permanent so its hard to know whether to stay here or move somewhere else where maybe there are going to be more jobs. There are no leads anywhere, but its hard to know what to do. Plus both of us desire to be doing ministry with a larger percentage of our lives, which also makes us ask the question "what next and Where to?" amidst these questions though I feel rather happy with my life as of today and I'm pretty much ok with that :)
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